We played Springville tonight who is ranked #1 in 4A...we came into the game undefeated and ranked 3rd. Do you realize how much stress that can put on a coach? I KNEW we had a better chance than almost anyone else in the state to ruin Springville's undefeated record that goes back 20 somethin games. I KNEW we could make a statement by beating these guys. I KNEW that it was up to me as a coach to help prepare these guys for one of the biggest games of the season. I went down to watch Springville play last weekend and figured out how to beat them. Ever since I went to that game...that's all I could think about. How we could beat Springville. I was completely stressed and anxious and didn't have room in my brain to worry about anything else.
Add some finals and other drama to that, and you pretty much get a zombie Kelli. I wasn't myself at all. I really just could not think about anything else or talk about anything else, because that was all my mind wanted to think about until this week was over.
I just got back from the Springville game. We lost, but we went down fighting. We were up the first three quarters and just couldn't pull it off at the end. I felt really good about what we learned and what we can work on to really take it to em' at state when it really matters. I really felt good about the game, despite the loss. It's midnight, and I have a financial advising final in seven hours that I have yet to study for. I am straight up exhausted. I can't sleep, but I really want to. I just want this week to be over so I can enjoy the holidays with my family, and take some time to recover and be normal Kelli again.
So I am sorry for anyone who has talked to me and wondered about my lack of enthusiasm for life or my complete lack of personality. I actually probably won't even remember that I talked to you, because I was so consumed in other thoughts that the conversation we had wasn't really what I was actually thinking about. But don't worry, I am still Kelli. I am still happy go lucky and fun, just maybe after this week, I will be able to think and act a little bit more like myself! Goodnight!