Here you go.
An addict- a stranger, a prisoner, your neighbor, maybe even a friend or brother, but never you.
Never would you allow yourself to become so weak or so dumb that a simple craving or preference soon becomes something that takes it all. It takes things you cherish such as close friends, money, maybe even your job. Sure, those losses hurt and may even trigger further destructive behaviors, but that isn't the worst thing an addiction steals like a thief in the night.
So sneaky and swift, addiction takes over a life that once had so much promise and hope, but now has become completely unpredictable. Every minute spent alive is a minute of success when in the depths of addiction. Before you even have time to armor up and defend yourself against this powerful enemy disguised as an old friend, it is too late and too strong and so much has already gone wrong.
"Get treatment" they say, as if it is as simple as running your car through a car wash and quickly seeing change and results. You seek treatment in hope it will all go away. Sure, you are stronger and smarter than most- you should have no problem perfecting this weakness; but soon you learn it is strong and complicated and requires a deep belief that you matter and you are deserving of such change. This change is not just a one time, simple decision to change your behavior, but rather an act of courage every single minute of every single day to stay in control and not let the addiction to take over.
Sure, there will be setbacks and struggles. There will be about a dozen "rock bottoms". But eventually, they will be further apart, and you will get back up faster and with more knowledge with every fall. Every fall requires you to recommit and decide to make yourself a priority. Learning to truly believe you are worth it will surely be the longest and hardest battle of this addiction war.
An addict. No, you never thought you would ever be so dumb or so weak. Yet here you are with so many poor decisions and experiences you wish you could change but can't. So much is lost that you can never get back.
So why? What now? Now it is time to armor up and fight like hell. Fight for yourself and nobody else. For if you fight for others, you can never win. Fight because you matter. Fight because you have been chosen to have this experience to become who you are meant to become- a person more connected to God, more passionate, more sincere, more courageous, and most importantly, YOU! The girl who can change the world because of the year 2013, because she knows what it's like to go to hell and back. An addict? Yes. But more importantly- a soldier, a survivor, and a strengthened daughter of God.