I have decided this week that it is time for basketball to end. It is just taking up too much time that I would rather spend doing homework, running, and spending more time with my boyfriend. It's just burnt me out once and for all. I love the girls and I love coaching, but it is time to get my life back. I want the extra 30 hours a week freed up.
Drama. I'm just sick of it. I'm sick of drama and dealing with people's crap. It's frustrating that people's actions can have such an impact on my mood and my life. I won't go too much into detail, but I am just done with the crap that some people pull and indirectly affect my mood and my stress level.
School killed me this week. I got my butt kicked! I had some really difficult tests that straight up robbed me. I was way frustrated with my academic life this week. I guess I am just so used to knowing the material and dominating tests that when I do less than perfect, I get really upset with myself. I just feel like I have had so much going on, that it has shown in my school work and it's a really hard hole to dig myself out of.
I got a speeding ticket. This was the topper! I got about 3 hours of sleep last night and had to wake up early and attend an 8 hour workshop on homeownership for one of my classes. I was already fed up with the week and everything that I have had to deal with, and I was bugged that I had to waste an entire 8 hours on this workshop and then BAM! ticket. grrrrr I just HATE getting tickets, especially because I had no idea what the speed limit was and the cop was not forgiving AT ALL.
There was a lot more negatives, but those were the BIG ones. I don't wanna be a total bitter buffalo, so let's just leave the list at that and move onto the positives....
The girls that I coach won region this week. We are still undefeated in region with one more game to go on Tuesday. I am way excited for all that they have accomplished, and happy that I could play a small part in their road to success. I am really looking forward to the state tournament to see how they do.
I have a waaaay rad/patient boyfriend. I really don't know how I go so lucky. I have been an absolute MESS this week and he is so patient with me. He isn't selfish about his time with me. He understands that I am crazy busy, and cares about how well I do in school and gives me the time that I need to do homework and study. He also knows how grumpy I get when I don't sleep, so he has made sure that I have gotten sufficient sleep each night. It's just the little things like a text to say "hi" or telling me how much I matter and being understanding and validating my feelings. Last night, we FINALLY got to spend some time together (more than 10 minutes in a day), so we went on a little roadtrip to Ogden and played indoor soccer. It was SOOOO fun and just what I needed! We just sang and talked and just enjoyed being together, I loved it!
The sun is shining!! Ahhh my very favorite thing EVER. I honestly have so much more energy when the sun is shining. It's like the sun just melts all of my winter depression right off! It just feels sooo good to have a nice day and not have a frozen gloomy day for the first time in months!!
So although it's been a hard week, I really can't complain too much. When I take a step back and realize that all the negatives really could be sooo much worse and I have dealt with a lot more in my past, I can't help but feel blessed and glad that I am in this spot in my life right now. I am so blessed to have so many people that love and care about me and I am so lucky to have all of the opportunities that I have to go to school and coach and everything else. So, here's to a better week starting tomorrow!!