A Life Worth Living

So, exactly 2 months ago, I had what I refer to as my "mental health car crash". I am not going to go into further detail, but I will say this. The pressure of being perfect that I placed upon myself made me crash HARD. It has been a hard journey since then trying to establish my purpose and what I want out of life. Writing on here, for whatever reason, is liberating. It's liberating to show my imperfections and think MAYBE just MAYBE a fellow perfectionist will be relieved to know that someone else struggles with it as well. It's been a tough road, but I really believe that it will be worth it. The thought that I don't have to be perfect and I can be whoever I want to be, even if it's messy sometimes, makes me SO excited!

So, the other day, I was given the assignment to create a map of my idea of "A Life Worth Living". Keep in mind, this isn't a bucket list, rather a map of the journey I want to take my life on. I wrote pages and pages, but I will just share a few of what my "Life Worth Living" map looks like: 

• Become comfortable being imperfect. 
• Love myself and others unconditionally.
• Take a non judgmental stance on myself and others. 
• Go on adventures: 
• Thailand
• Brazil
• Hike Kili
• Hike McKinley
• Backpack Europe
• India
• Live in another country.
• Qualify for Boston.
• Have a solid relationship with God, regardless of religious structure. 
• Learn how to meditate effectively to manage stress and sleep. 
• Do a triathlon. 
• Have a family. 
• Don't fake who I am to make others comfortable, be authentic regardless of other's beliefs. 
• Write a book. 
• Engage in public speaking. 
• Learn to surf. 
• Make others laugh and feel happy. 
• Ask for help. 
• Feel deserving. 
• Get a PHD
• Be a leader/teacher/coach. 
• Take risks based on faith, rather than fear. 
• Believe in myself.

So there's a glimpse of my outline. It's something that will help me base my decisions on moving forward. When faced with a decision, I can go back to this outline and decide if it will help or hurt my Life Worth Living journey. I'm so excited to move forward and feel a purpose and feel completely whole, even if I'm not perfect. 

"We cannot do great things, we can only do small things with great love."